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Author: Ryan

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Had to Step Away

I didn’t post yesterday. That was partially intentional. I noticed that I’ve been posting everyday and that wasn’t what I had planned on. Honestly, I didn’t set out with any posting schedule in mind. In the back of my mind, I guess I was thinking I’d be posting 2-3 times a week, but I wasn’t married to the idea. I just felt I would write when I had something I wanted to say, which I guess is what I’ve been doing. I just didn’t want to set the expectation that it would be a daily thing, despite my behavior otherwise.

Life wise, the day was filled with back to back conference calls and a good amount to urgent issues that required my attention. I did manage to get a lunch break! While I nuked my frozen dinner, I decided to try to catch up on my social feeds. Boy was that a mistake. I think Goodreads and Pinterest were the only ones that weren’t dripping with anger, hate, politics and venom. Yesterday was one of those days where I seriously considered deleting my social accounts.

After I inhaled my lunch, I used the rest of my limited time to brainstorm and map out my main character. I feel like I made a lot of progress during that session, even though I didn’t get to finish. I’m hoping to have another successful session later today. I’ve got a good idea of what I need to do in order to get to the point where I can start working on the first draft. I’m thinking I should be able to start mid-June, but we’ll see what happens. But like I said, I’m feeling pretty good about yesterday’s work and path forward. I’m glad I have writing to turn to when the world is in chaos.

Mood: A working green star with a computer. Productive

Music:  Van Halen – “Right Now”

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Cuts Coming

Well, that’s just lovely. The company I work for has sent out official notice that layoffs will be happening in the coming weeks. From what we hear, it’ll be a rather large cut. In the past, they gave impacted folks 60 days to find a new job in the company but now they’ve cut it down to 14 days because there’s not many alternative roles available. To say that I’m nervous is an understatement.

If I were to get laid off, it would seriously impact the plans I have for the next 3-5 years for becoming debt free and getting the life we’ve always wanted. I know there’s no sense in fretting about what I have no control over but now is by far the worst time to lose a job. The job market is in shambles due to the coronavirus so the odds of being able to get another job, much less near my current salary, are slim to none. I don’t know what we’ll do if I end up losing my job.

Mood: An achy green star. Worried

Music: AC/DC – “T.N.T.”

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Space X Launch

It didn’t get rained out this time! It was really cool to see history unfolding in real time yesterday. Not only did the launch of the Falcon 9 go well, the booster returned to earth as planned and landed successfully on the ocean-based landing pad. Pretty slick compared to how the old rockets and fuels tanks of the shuttle came back to earth. I checked in on them a few minutes ago and watched the Dragon capsule do their manual test maneuvers and then dock with the ISS. That was awesome! I love space stuff.

I’ve been wrestling with my story idea for days. Bit and pieces have emerged as I’ve tried to brainstorm using Q&A, but key elements have been missing, especially how the main character fits into the story as a whole. It felt as if my imagination randomly picked a character out of bucket and then threw them into an unrelated situation which has nothing to do with them. Yeah, I’ve been banging my head against my desk. How did you know? I went to bed frustrated because I wasn’t getting anywhere. 1am rolls around and I wake up with a little heartburn but as I laid back down, the next big piece pops into my head. More pieces continued to come to me as I furiously scribbled stuff down in the dark. It’s funny how that works.

So where does that put me? I now know why my main character is there and why he’s needed. I also know more about my antagonist and the method to his machinations. Also gained some tidbits about side characters that I was also lost on. I even got the first line of the story last night. That’s a really good sign. I still have plenty of stuff yet to work out, but I like I might be over that big hurdle that’s been tripping me up. I’m so ready to get back into writing stage but I can’t rush it.

Mood: An artistic green star with an painting easel. Creative

Music: The Offspring – “Self-Esteem”

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