Music: The Pretty Reckless – “Heaven Knows”
Location: Hotel Room
I was typing up the poem I wrote yesterday and laughed at the juxtaposition when compared to the poems that came just before it. Here’s the poem I wrote only a few days ago:
It’s so hard to find a moment’s peace,
Much less the opportunity for release,
There’s just too much going on these days,
Time seems to pass by in a thick haze,
How did things become so hectic and fast?
What happened to the slow and steady of the past?
The times I’ve tried to take a small pause,
I’m snatched onward in unforgiving jaws,
I don’t comprehend the urgency behind it all,
I’m pulled along with it feeling like a ragdoll,
Gone are the days where I could control my path,
Is there an end to this stress-filled bloodbath?
And this is the poem I wrote yesterday:
I love the fizzle after a wave’s crash,
And the subsequent rush and splash,
I love the shifting white, blue and green,
And the salty air mixed with sunscreen,
I love the wide expanse of greyish white sand,
And the swirls of orange up and down the strand,
I love to see the pelicans and seagulls fly,
And the menagerie of kites up in the sky,
I love the grasses on the sand dunes that sway,
And the plovers as they hunt their prey,
I love what being at the ocean does to me,
For I can’t imagine my life without the sea,
Notice the difference? I think it’s funny what a few days of vacation can do to improve one’s emotional state. Today started out wet, cold and breezy. Luckily it didn’t stay that way. It warmed up to the mid-70s, and even the sun came out for a while.
We visited the St. Johns County Pier for a while around lunchtime. It’s an older pier, but the city put some effort into making it family friendly. There’s a water play area for the kids and places to shower, as well as get a bite to eat. The parking is free, and they tend to host a farmer’s market there in the parking lot once a week.
Up on the pier we ran into this guy enjoying the sunshine and the wind. He didn’t seem all that bothered by the people. Maybe he’s into people watching?
We tried Beachcomber for lunch, a local hotspot located on the beach. The food was fair, but I expected better given the number of folks there.
While the sun was still out, we headed back to the beach and set up for a few hours. The water was colder today even though the air temps were warmer. I’ll never understand Mother Nature. Still, it was good to have a little ocean time before we head home. The ocean was sorely missed.
We debated staying in for the evening but opted to try another restaurant for dinner that was recommended to us at the pier called the Sunset Grille. The place apparently has a ton of awards for their food, and after going there, I can see why. There was a bit of a wait to get inside, but the food was great.
I hate that we’re at the end of our trip. I wish it could have been longer. Sadly, the real world awaits. The trip has given me some perspective on things, and I realize I can’t remain in the neutral state that I’ve been in. Being adrift provided a much-needed break but it also meant I’ve been powerless against the forces around me. It’s better to take the helm, pick a direction and set sail than to let the currents take me where they will. We all need direction in our lives, and I’ve been without it for a while now — time to change that.